Five things to consider...
What if I obsessed over all the things I love about myself instead?
I am one to obsess. Over the big things, and the little things. A perfectionist but also a creative, talk about a case for meds right there. So I'm setting my sights pretty low these days, striving really hard to just BE. Be happy. Content. Relaxed and in control. Lol. That last one, right there. The real dreaded 'c' word.
It presents all strong and in charge, but really it's nothing but a glass case of emotion (thank you Ron Burgundy). It is the glue I thought I needed to keep my life from spiralling out, as it turns out though, too much of one thing is never a good thing.
Without boring you and prefacing too far back into history, I'll bring you up to speed. I'm a control freak that likes to present as a free spirit. It's very confusing to myself, I can't imagine what it must be like for you. But what I do know, is that it's not been a great attribute when it comes to relationships.
So, in this new vain of 'love letters', whilst trying to rebuild like a phoenix, I painfully list five things I LOVE about myself. Not like, think is kind of neat, or glad I know how to do, but really LOVE about this human I get to be for who know's how long.
Well, feck. I've been sitting here for ten minutes and I keep erasing everything I come up with. I feel anything I list is being, as Trump would say, Braggadocious or I talk myself out of.
Ouch, this hurts more than I thought.
- Resourceful. Macgyver and I would have made the ultimate CIA babies.
- Honest. To a f*cking fault.
- Voracious Reader
So this started as a list of ten. And I couldn't even come close to that. As you can see, the voracious reader was grasping at straws. I'll try this again in a couple weeks. Until then, these five things are posted on my bathroom mirror to remind myself these are the things I should obsess over, not things completely out of my control.
Until next time,